The time it takes for us to realize that we have an issue is about less than a second. The time it takes is to correct this issue can take a lifetime, why is that? I was sitting in my room knowing I have an issue but continuing to do the same thing over and over as if I was listening to the same song over and over again. Waking up I tell my self that this will be the day when I change, this will be the day I start off right. Self sabotaging seems to be the modern realization of someone’s ego. I tend to stay on the same page without wanting to turn the page with fear of it. I tend to want to resort back to the same things I am accustomed to and can’t get to the part I want to be and without it I feel alone and depressed. With the same people I seem to go out with, they seem to be friendly but in the end I am betrayed by their desires of drinking and loose women. Goals I set every start of the week seems to be dwindled by the end when my urge to use the bottle to solve my social problems.
