Do what you love!

So now that I have recently let my stress go and Just started to do the things Ive always wanted to try. Climbing mountains, getting ripped and training for a marathon I noticed that I started to develop a personality that was my own. As I continue to write down the goals that I want to accomplish I understand why we have men who are considered these alpha males. They own their own lives and I see this in there eyes and when I started to go out for the first time I saw the response that others had when in company with these men.

I had to know how and why these people are so dang entertaining/ attractive/mysterious. As I start to do some research there is a lot of the same answers between different people and styles. I can guarantee right now I fill the same way and it fills amazing. I am not rich and  I am not tall But I am fit and I own my own life. That was one thing I was missing, whenever I would talk to someone I would hesitate when I told them I am going through a divorce and have a kid because I thought they would think differently of me.

Own your life because it is who you are!! The difference between you and that alpha male is that they own their lives. They tell you the good and bad of their lives but know that they have learned from their experiences. So to get out and do things and to create your own personality you need to try to do things you’ve always wanted to do!

Make better choices!! for a better life

As I look out at the vast mountain range of the “Keyhole” with the 50 MPH wind hitting my face like a sand blaster, my stomach drops. Looking down, I see a rocky ridge 2000 feet down with a straight drop and to the left was the path up the massive mountain which I was almost there. I stepped back for a moment looked at the people I was with and saw that they were not going to do it. I started back down the boulder field and thought to myself I was almost there what am I scared of?  The drop?  The wind? Yeah I was scared but we are always scared of everything and this separates us from the ones who “can” and the “cants”. I start to tighten up my backpack and tie my shoes “Hey, I am going to do it!” my friends turn around and look at me like I was crazy. I told them it may take me some time but I will be back! I start to ascend back to the entrance of the backside of the mountain, the wind blowing in my face my stomach again starts to drop again as I climb over the giant boulders.

Embrace being Single!

As the anxiety rises through my head wondering what I did to make her run, I sit back and analyze everything. The feeling of emotions of inadequacy roles over me as I descend to pits of depression. Trying to feel happy but cant put the smile on my face. The feeling of being alone is an upmost horrible feeling at first but as I stare at the phone and realize she is not going to send a text back to a witty thing I said. I am single and a master of my own domain, no one to tell me what to do or say. I realize that I may not be ready for a relationship but trying to rush into one because I am afraid of being alone. I have always done that jumping from one to another thinking it was a good idea. Figured out that it was always a bad idea because I haven’t experienced being alone truly and I think that is why it scares me.

            The thought of the unknown is a scary thought and I wasn’t wanting to feel this way. Everything was good until we did the deed and then it changes the emotions between us both, the scary thought of finding someone was also a happy thought that I could not erase I knew I started to rush into quickly. I tend to do that a lot and then see the fleeing of women that I have seen all to much. Ive always been a relationship type of guy but have not embellished the single life. I think it is time to start understanding that I can be happy with myself and be alone.

            First things first, I need to reinvent my values as a person. There is a reason why I have failed relationships and that is because I myself has no core values, I use their values to create my own perception therefore I am reliant own the relationship to define my thoughts and feelings. How I am going to do that is to create the perception that I am in control in what I want and what I do. Self control shows many people who they really are in life and creation of life as they know it. I tend to fall in the category where I will follow everyone else’s vision in what I am supposed to be. I am my own person and that speaks a lot for many people who don’t know who they are and what they are capable of. Creating self control not only will help me develop values but create a confidence that is long lasting in being a person who can get about anything they want in life. I must commit to the new me and say goodbye the irresponsible me, I must push forward in life to a degree of irreversible threat. I need this as if it is my sanction my undeniable right as an individual. I must finally decided to accomplish my goals and create a feeling of self worth so the women that I want will want what I share as a value. Its time to do it!!