Love Yourself

As I stare waitingly into the cold black screen, I have anxiety on the unexplained. The call or even text that I have waited for sometime just will not come. Having the urge to make the attempt to call I back up for a minute and excuse myself. “I shouldn’t be feeling this way, I should be out and about but I am not”. Sitting in my bedroom just pondering and wanting it to give me some sound that I have been yourning for. With all of the people and women that I have met why is this one bothering me? Why cant I just let go and just move on somehow?

            Wondering for several days I walked down the street remembering of the homework assignment I had to complete in English, I started to stress about that as well. The assignment was to write about a travelling experience I had that taught me a lesson and to write as a narrative. I started out as talking about the whole thing of me in Lake Powell and doing all of the crazy things that we did. One thing that stuck in my mind was the “cliff Jump” this was one of my most memorable moments in my life that I could remember. As I start to write about it I realized that was the only time I was single and happy to not have to worry about what another person is doing.

            As I continue to ponder the reasoning and writing the story my dialogue comes to life as if the words was trying to say something to me. I stop and thought real hard on why I feel that I always have to have a female around me. “I don’t know my limits, I don’t even know how to do anything”. The thought processes through my head like a nail gun putting together the foundation of a wall. I need to start fulfilling my life with other things than the attention of the opposite sex. I cant operate without knowing of a women that cares or at least is thinking of me. So how do I start? What am I going to do to rid myself of the all to commonality of most men and why we fail with relationships.

           

            The all to common “jumping from one to the other” and why we associate this to being happy. I am going to work with this one as somewhat of a starter because I myself has fallen victim to a lot of the term usage of my own life and why I do this. I have always been in a relationship and enjoyed them but for one I time in my life I have not truly enjoyed myself in being single. So here is a few things I am going to point at when trying this new thing:

• Make a list “Bucket List”- Try new things or reinvent old things  but make a list in the stuff you have always wanted to try and do it alone. You don’t need friends for this one try to do this one and you should be trying to make new friends.
• Get fit- Now I am always saying this because I enjoy being healthy but try to enjoy wherever you are.
• Help your community- Try to sign up to help fix the local community or even feed the homeless. Be proactive in giving back to your community.
• Reconnect with family/friends- this is a big one that I had an issue with because with my relationships I was close guarded so I cared nothing with the other relationships in my life. Basically just leaving them to the waste side.
• Go on vacation with yourself- I am going to go to New York this summer and I believe I am going to go there by myself to let some steam off.

There is a lot of other things you can do but start to live life as if you are the one driving. Too many people fall victim to the innate nature of a relationship and they find themselves in an emotional rollercoaster. If you yourself do not know what you like how is the other person in your life going to know!!

Summer!! Customize it !!

Wanting more from life and wondering what you can do to achieve it? Wondering the same myself as I was out on another weekend with my buddies trying to understand why I do this every weekend. Contemplating this in the back of my mind I knew why and it was because my friends do it. Drinking until I get totally obliterated and not being able to remember the night is something I don’t think I want to continue doing. Trying to re-piece the night I sounded like I had a great time but why put my body through this, no more I say because it is not worth it. I cant stress the importance of how drinking can inhibit everything about your life as I have had to deal with it for a little bit but finally realized the importance of being a healthy individual. I now have the power to take back my life and make the proper decisions to have an amazing summer!!

We all dream about doing something more with our life and being able to do something different but when it comes to the decision we don’t do it. Self sabotage is what I have been preaching and that is what we all do but lets think about a healthier summer:

• Get Fit- Now this is hard but once you jump in its no holds barred. Having summer here gives me a sense of wanting to get out and do something active and also being in Colorado helps. Get out and do some running, hiking or mountain biking as well. Not only will this of course help your health but better with the opposite sex as well.
• Try something new- So what I have noticed is that people tend to be in habit. What you may want to try is to get fit but try a new way of doing it. I will start bouldering on Tuesday and extremely excited because it is something new and I am not wasting away at a patio drinking empty calories. Try to find something physically to do while it being also fun.
• New style- get rid of the 3 year old shorts and reward yourself with newer and of this decade style.
• Eat healthy and fresh- Summer always reminds me of fresh squeezed lemonade and grilling. Try to get a juicer and some fish, eating healthier also helps so many other things such as your mood. Fish is an amazing food because its protein to fat is outstanding and very lean for you but also the omega vitamins will help that burn you get turn into a tan senor!!
• Relax- Stop stressing, this leads to irrational decisions when it comes to your personal life as well. Feeling stressed can leave you tired and fatigued so when you had plans you wanted to do you may feel weary to do them.

I am thinking that maybe also trying to do some of these with the opposite sex. Try these things for this summer and even plan a trip other than party cities like places you really want to go!!

Positive Awareness!!

As I stand in the outskirts of the bar looking around I notice the cliques and people that are enjoying each other. As I look around I see beautiful women all over the place and the glances that they are giving me. I start to have a giant smile having loads of confidence I tend to relax a tad in my plaid shorts as I feel at ease with all of the surroundings. Even if the girls were not staring at me directly or just glancing for their attention I still felt as if the energy that I felt created a positive awareness!! This was giving me a natural high as I have not felt this in awhile; can we use this for our own advantage to have the confidence? That night I felt as if I was ten feet in the air even though I was only a tiny 5’ 7”.

So this is something I use in generality to create a positive outlook on myself. I believe that women in general use glances to create a self persona on what they think people think of them. I also use this towards my advantage because it creates awareness that I am good enough for the opposite sex. I don’t think, I know that I could be in basic knowledge that the women here I can have but just don’t have the balls to talk to them. I warm up by allowing the energy of sensuality envolope me as if I was reaping natural energy from a known source. It’s all in the head; you create a fear of the outcomes of what you do and the scenarios that can develop from it. One thing I know is the answer is no if you don't ask, taking chances is all you have.

Creating a positive awareness about yourself can almost guarantee a better night for you and possibly your friends. You see even though we don’t know this we give off energy non-verbally but by looks and glances, try to realize it next time someone gives you a look and remember how you feel. The thought patterns that you create is from another source which you can presume has to be energy. What I try to teach is to envelope a thought pattern to use in the process’s in which you can utilize as a tool instead of resorting to the alternate which is alcohol where you cannot have the ability to communicate with the opposite sex.